welcome to my journal entry for Feb. 1. Yippee, it is now February--my favorite month. This morning I helped my mother with her class's history fair projects. I had to collect images off the internet and then print interesting covers for 10 different reports. This took longer than I thought because the internet is more browsable than searchable. You can find all kind of neat things when you are not looking, but when you want something specific it is hard to seperate out the vast amount of information that is out there.

(warning: here is a mini-diatribe on the internet) However, I have noticed that over the years, the researching process that is most effective has changed as the internet has grown. When I first started to use it in 1993, my tools included newsgroups, email, and mosaic. This limited me to discussion with other people for information, and searching limited resources that were currently up. However, I would quickly know if my designed information was out there, because there wasn't much to search through. The internet was primarily a educational and military tool at that point, so the info available was usually factual, reliable, and extensive. Plus there were not a multitude of tools to utilize, which simplified the process and eliminated any possible overlaps in searches. I didn't do what I do now, which is to go to yahoo, then altavista, then lycos, hotbot, google, and then finally back to yahoo with a new formation of the search request. In the past, at a certain point I would give up, if I couldn't find my information. But now I keep going, feeling down there has to be something on the internet about that particular topic. And the web continues to grow unbalanced in many directions. Now I look back at my baby internet days, and I long for the simplicity of using lynx, a text browser. However, there is also know way I can use lynx, the way the internet has grown. The corporatizing of the Internet has driven snappy images and soundbites to the forefront, and true endeavors to collect information for free has diminished. Most of the time it is the free info which is worth the most. (end diatribe)

One of the things I have been thinking about lately is the future. I starting to think about this again today when I was doing the computer stuff for my mother, and she was offering to pay me. Next quarter I will only be taking one class, on Saturday, and will be looking for a job. And then the question comes in, What job? I have done more than one type of job in the past, but what experience do I want next? I don't have an answer yet--I just wanted to throw out the idea in this journal.

Btw, as you can see, there are 2 grey wolves in the background. Did you know that I raised three 99 percent wolf-dogs from the time they were 2 weeks old until they were 6 months old? One, Masha, (seen on the right) is now living with a friend of mine nearby. Another two, Ragnar and Sasha went to live with a family out in the country. Because of my relationship with these wolves (including nursing Ragnar back from near-death when he had parvo-virus) I don't view wolves as scary animals. This does not mean that I would not be wary of wolves in the wild (I once had my car mauled and broken into by a bear in the mountains in CA, so I know the range of behaviors possible by a wild animal). However, I also know the nature, the tendencies, and the behavior of a wolf makes sense, and is always exists in some kind of context. This knowledge allows someone to develop a relationship with a domesticated wolf which is safe and wonderful.

Also, the background music is Don't Fear the Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult. For a long time I loved this song, but did not know who sang or where to find it. Finally it was the theme song for the Oliver Stone short-lived tv show Twim Palms. I watched that show when no one else did because of the music. And so I read the credits for it, and found out who sang it. Anyway, I love this song because of how it sounds, and also because I think it has a very good point about life--and death.

On a totally different note, today I got a new cell phone. I used to have a Nokia model through Houston Cellular, but now I have the Motorola i1000plus through Nextel. This isn't interesting in itself, except that a rep came from Nextel to teach my family how to use our new cell phones. He kept getting annoyed with me because I was way ahead of everyone else, and I was already starting to use it. But the idea of this person coming into your home to teach you how to use a phone is just really funny to me. Another thing, the phone reminds me of the water proof electronics. I keep thinking "Baywatch" everytime I look at it. Don't ask me why. It isn't yellow, and it isn't waterproof, so go figure.

Well, I sure was wordy this evening. Not much happening, but I guess I wanted to vent anyway. Remember, don't fear the reaper, or the wolf.

02/02/00 01:24 AM